I didn't realize the importance and human right we all have to pleasure until last year when I had to honor of doing a 3-month coaching session with a goddess Che Che. She opened my world up in more ways then one but one of the most important things I took from it was Pleasure not Pressure. Something that's important for me to remember is pleasure is whatever pleasure is to ME. Just like we all have our personal battles, personal style, personal voice, and so on we also have our own personal pleasure (I believe at least). I wasn't a woman who embodied the wild, woman inside until recently, and I'll never go back. It's so empowering and honest and real and vulnerable and PLEASURABLE!!! So I write this to encourage you all (men, women, all) to embrace your sensuality, experience pleasure every single day of your life. Remember, there is more then just sexual pleasure, and sexual pleasure comes in so many ways, nothing is "wrong" and nothing is off limits. If it feels pleasurable to you, then it's the way to go!! I recently, as in today, fully embraced that and it has changed my world yet again. It took me so many lessons and self-love and experiences to get here and I have so far to go but I love where I am at. I love what I am struggling with. I love what I am choosing to fight for. I love how I am FEELING and that my friend is the intention of this little light of mine. Pleasure. Pleasure. Pllleeasssurrrrreee. All day. Errrday. I would LOVE to talk to anyone and everyone about this and just open the conversation. It's something I was so afraid of and feared, but now that I have embraced it for me and true to me it has changed my life. You're not alone and whatever you are wondering, is so true to you! Pleasure not pressure.
-LurvLiz
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I feel as if we all have those moments of loneliness and not the type of "oh a friend coming over will help" or anything like that. But a sense of loneliness that only love can fix. The intimate love with a significant other. It's been awhile, about 4/5 years since I have had anything like that, but I have been so fortunate to be loved in other ways, showered with it in fact. But I would have to admit my "daddy issues" keep me from embracing that fully and truly realizing how lucky I am to even have that in my life. Lately, I've felt that loneliness a lot.. like a lot a lot. I am sure their are many factors for instance the holidays, all those close to me have a significant other & are seriously madly in love.. all of them, and whatever else. But the root of it all is honestly I kinda want a relationship, but then a part of me totally doesn't because a relationship with myself is hard work enough ya know? I confuse myself often but I just want the cuddles and the kisses and the sex and the experimentation and discovery. I think I am just hungry for something new and that's something I haven't had in a long time and maybe that's my go to idk.. it's just been on my heart and mind. Don't get me wrong I've had the hook ups and this almost thing with a guy, but ALL bad news and I ended or they ended or we ended them all. All poison. All not good. ALL BAD NEWS. And I think about it, all I really do is work and dance. Not really ideal places to meet people and some of that poison and bad news I was talking about happened with work people so I figure it's time to stay away from that. So I'm not really putting myself in situations to meet people either and after I have this whole rant with myself or other people I realize that it will all come when it is suppose to and with time. The Universe, from my experience, has funny timing and always is working in my favor. The love I have for myself will always be more important than any other love, until I have a kid(s). Well that's my rant and where I am at emotionally and with my love life. Who knows, this may change tomorrow.. tonight.. in a month.. in a year.. or never. However it works out is however it works out.
You are loved. You are enough. I am loved. I am enough. -LurvLiz It's funny that I decided to bring this back up today because it's been about 4 years since I wrote on here. I journal randomly and doodle on the daily but blogging... well I've only ever had to courage once before. Something stirred up inside me to do it again and I realize that I never released my previous post... I will now. Even though they are in the past, they share a part of me and that's what I am here to do. Share my experiences and honestly RELEASE AND VENT! So don't get the wrong idea, this blog is for me not for anyone else. It is a different type of release for me because I am typing, I feel official.. I feel like a writer. Something I secretly and I mean that because no one knows but being a writer is a dream I gave up on a long time ago. Maybe I'll attack it again one day but for now, this will do cause ya girl got lots of dreams she's achieving. Well heres that.. the first one of hopefully many or maybe it will be another 4 years WHO KNOWS!
-LurvLiz It's the first day of the brand new year and a brand new beginning. In my eyes I have spent it almost perfectly. I woke up next to my significant other and couldn't be happier. We played GTA and then went to eat pizza (best food to start the year off with). It has been a chill, relaxing day and I am grateful for it. I am so lucky to have my boyfriend and his family in my life. They are opposite of my family which is what I love about them. It gives me a different view on life and everything else. As I was discussing and thinking last night, I am not upset or sad that I spent new years with only my boyfriend. Yeah it would've been nice to be with a group of people, but the people that are in our lives right now aren't who we wanted to spend it with. The people who are currently in our lives don't mix well with us anymore and that's okay. It's no ones fault and no one is a bad person because of it. We're all just growing and going different paths. Mine happens to be where I don't get along with a lot of people who I used to be best friends with. We just have different views and personalities don't mix anymore. I am extremely excited for what this new year is going to bring me and I can't wait to see who will come across my path :)
I guess I don't really know what to think or expect anymore. One second ___ treats me fine and the next ___ I am getting yelled at for not eating something. I've noticed it's like this with a lot of significant people in my life. They treat me amazing, but only when they want to. And when they don't want to anymore, I tell them how I am feeling about it, but then they get upset and pissed at me. Which results in me blaming myself and taking responsibility for the issue or issues that probably are more of the other person's fault than my own. I always find a way to blame myself and make myself the bad guy. I always make sure others feel better after an argument and I rarely get it in return. I just want my significant other to treat me like he is still trying to get me kind of. Not as intense of course, but being treated as if it was the beginning would be nice. More so of being treated like they aren't afraid of losing you and when we get in a fight I understand we have to fight. But for once can the other be trying to make things better instead of myself... I just don't understand why I get treated like this.
If you think about everything around you, those things are just that. Things. They are just things with no actual meaning. Sure there is the letters from your boyfriend, pictures of a close relative, and many memories. Again just things. It is great to reminisce and honestly I am probably a woman who does it way too much. It is good to do, but it's better to realize the NOW. Life. Life is NOW and life never reminisces... Music is what it took for me to realize this. Also me staring at a brand new promise ring my boyfriend gave me. I realize I have everything to be happy, but I also have everything to lose. That's what is fun about life to me, at any point in time you can lose it all. All of it just gone, but it's not and that's why you should cherish everything in your life NOW and don't get caught up in the past. It's the past. Can't change it, so why waste valuable time trying to. Merry Christmas Eve, Eve..
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